Friday, July 23, 2004
sigh. i know lotsa people kinda hate me now. and i kinda know the reasons/ but some stuff just aren't controlled by me !! maybe no one will ever understand what it feels to be me. there's no point trying to explain it anyway. i wish i can be vindicated by you all. cos  i never did anything wrong to you in the first place. why can't people try to understand ? really !! i never meant for anything like this to happen. its a very dumb system i know. but what can i do ? if i were given the choice, i'd gladly not be in this position now. it hurts. like a million ant bites on one finger. that numbing feeling that will go away. but not yet.

anyway. think i'm a loser dm lar. think i'm too playful. i'm so disorganised. i forget stuff.. i'm like the worse cedar band has ever had. maybe it was all wrong lar. it should be someone else. anyone else but me. i try but its not my fault if others aren't cooperating right. what should i do ?!

this is stupid lar. today went to watch spiderman with shar FINALLY ! hahas. been planning to go for like the past month and we finally settled being free today ! yes. it was quite long. and the show was kinda like LOTR. and now we know whats gonna happen in movie three. or most probably guessed it lar. dumb pearl go draw SPIDER-MEIN on my hand . can't even spell properly ok . hahas .. then i had to cover my hand or hide it under the table or turn it palm face up during the english timed assignment and A.maths test. stupid. then "SIR SURESH" was like trying to see what i was covering on my hand .. tsk* i shall get back at her during bio lesson some day !!

went to help out at the lower sec cheering session. thought claire and i were the only enthu ones who wanted to go help out, but apparently everyone else was just as excited. practically everyone turned up. the biggest surprise was tracy and angela ! i was so shocked to see them there. they're like the slackiest people./ hahas. but tracy ah sure cheer one of the most enthu on wednesday one ! whee. i can't wait ... and the new cheer is so SO nice !

we come from the greatest school

we come from cedar girls

we come as a member of a great great school

we fight for the glory

we fight for the victory

we fight with the spirit never seen before

up for cedar

go for the best

cedar girls cedar girls

YEAH !

shoE ||| 6:58 PM

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