Friday, May 28, 2004
sighs* i've been thinking alot about my life. does it always have to be screwed. i realised blasting loud music into your ears at somewhere near maximun level does wonders. i guess. it just blocks out all probabilities of thinking of other stuff. i mean i can't concentrate with the words all messing up my head. yupp and heavy metal helps to wash my mind too. lolx . never really liked it before. but theres quite alot of it in my sister's com. BLAST BLAST** feeling touchy somehow. the slightest stuff make me wanna cry. maybe its just the period thingie. but i don't think so. hmmms .. maybe i'm mentally unstable too. i can't believe i got pissed so easily just now. whats wrong with me right. just what the hell*. history kinda likes repeating itself yeah. i never really thought about life as a real thing. i used to just live each day as it came. i think now the world isn't as easy as i thought it was. why must we all grow up. if only there was an easy way out. maybe i'm just an alien exiled to earth to suffer the life of a human. if only it were true. my dreams just shouldn't affect my mind. somehow i'm not sure how to differentiate my dreams from reality. sometimes people tell me stuff. and sometimes i dream that people tell me stuff. have seriously no way to explain this feeling inside. something burnin. whatever. guess some stuff just have to be figured out by myself. some pain just can't be relieved by any great pal or soul . i don't think an angel will even enuff anyway.

sucks. anyway shall try to cheer myself up by writing about today. cos it was super lame. mainly went to town with sara .. who has officially became my [cherry][sar-y][ar-y] ... hehx. so cute right

ok yupp we played this mad tangle hand clap thing. smart me just had to go suggest the stripping thing if we clapped out of turn. hehx. end up i was the worst ok. took off both shoes. my tie. my right sock. and i had to do overall forfeit too ok. how much worse could it be ?? i had to tell mr liao. i had a boyfriend and that i like ** which i don't .. SO STUPID RIGHT .. *bleahx. hahas. well .. i should keep my big mouth closed next time.

ok. me and sara went to watch CONFESSIONS OF A TEENAGE DRAMA QUEEN lindsay lohan is so pretty. yesh. i think i'm so dumb and i don't open my eyes properly. cos i sctually didn't see jerilyn although she was smack sitting in front of me in pasta mania. me and sara ate chicken and shrooms i think if thats what its called. and also tuna and bacon. so full. yupp and our movie was 1235. yeah. i was so smart again . saw it as 1255. so i suggested we go hereen take neoprint cos it was only 12 when we finished. cine neoprint place wasn't even open ok. yupp and ended up. we finished at 1245. hehx. which was already late right. but i didn't know. thought we still had ten minutes. then i still slowly run and still can buy popcorn. reached inside at 1 los .. yupp only watched like one hour of the show. hmmmx . yeah.

after the movie which happened to finish at 2. we realised SIN-da-hu (sindhu) and nurul and their gang-ie were watching it too. then we were kind souls and helped this woman. she left her pink plastic handbag on the floor and forgot all about it lehx. can u believe it. forgetting her handbag. hmmmx . then sindhu's friend went to chase after the woman. she was so grateful! see i'm so kind . lucky she didn't get far

ok. me and sara went lame-ing around go look at stuff. which we had obviously no money . even the stuff on 80 percentdiscount u know. so we went look at all the branded stuff. then we saw and so decided we are gonna buy that skechers slippers and that pair of grey and pink nike shoes. so so so SUPER DUPER UPER nice

i finally bought my star-star bracelet. sar-y helped to choose it. must give her credit see. hmmm. then we just walked around. yah. we also tried the new starbucks caramel jelly frappuccinno thing. can't remember the name. short term memory. hehx. its so SWEET. and the jelly was so big. so straining to suck it up. me and sara had a fun time trying to suck them up one by one. and they kept popping at the back of our mouth !! so pain..

hehx. ok now's the time to make sara jealous if she happens to see this. i met five people at orchard. as in not from our school friends. hehx while she saw only all her very very nice JUNIORS.. hehx . i saw sarah and yi xuan. if i didn't remember wrongly their names. hehx . then i also met jerilyn with her ncc friends. too bad jiayue wasn't with them. bet she went out with her cat yuani friend. i think. yeah/ three already right. then i saw charmaine. waah. looked kinda crappy lar. no offence but she like always wear until very chio go out that type u know. so don't blame me. and lastly i met SHARLENE WONG PEITING. still remember her in p.school we went to walk in the rain to take neoprint. lame right. and still eat sushi. hahas. now she's so chio know. wear her pe shirt or something and pe shorts lehx. so pretty. and quite pretty now. kinda matured alot right.. see sara ! i met five people . lolx . next time we go out i try not to see anyone kk. then u go see all your many cousins. then u win me . lolx .

today when we were leaving our movie thing. the whole of cine was polluted with ACSB people ok. sara says their school have post exam activity go watch TROY. so cool right. what three hours plus ? huh . so lucky not like us stuck in school clearing up the stuff. but i rather play lame games and strip in class than pay 25 bucks for post exam activities. but actually ours is more expensive right. paid 45 for the DNA thing. which i don't think i learnt much about lar.

woah. i scare myself. typed such a long thingie just over one day ?? yeah. god bless the people who read the whole thing. which won't be many people anyway . lolx

shoE ||| 10:17 PM

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